Time- note the first letter of every stanza

[lydiarainek]

Tell me that everything will be alright now,
Tell me that it’s ok that I can’t laugh anymore,
Tell me that all my dreams won’t fade away,
Tell me that I can always smile once and awhile,

I used to tell myself that it would be ok,
I used to tell myself that I could stand alone,
I used to tell myself that it was perfectly fine,
I used to tell myself that I would make it,

My thoughts are filled with doubt,
My thoughts are filled with paranoia,
My thought are filled with regret,
My thoughts are filled with sorrow,

Even when I am around those I care for,
Even when I am alone in my room,
Even when I am in school or outside,
Even now I feel this weakness inside,

I realize now that it was all my fault,
I realize now that I have no choice,
I realize now that I alone can fix it,
I realize now that I can’t make it,

Neither friends nor family could save me now,
Neither hope nor dreams could save me now,
Neither money nor value could save me now,
Neither courage nor belief could save me now,

Sometimes I worry for too much about my life,
Sometimes I forget that I am still just a kid,
Sometimes I wonder what tomorrow will bring,
Sometimes I wonder what each action means.

I can’t feel the joy I once lived and loved,
I can’t feel a smile that once covered my face,
I can’t feel the warmth of my own flesh,
I can’t feel any strength in my pounding heart,

Don’t these many insecurities ever go away,
Don’t these dreams of our harsh realities fade,
Don’t these words mark the ever ticking fate,
Don’t these actions show another side of me,

Every thing seems to be in its perfect place,
Every one hides away a second side or face,
Every day means more then what we think,
Every moment to live is another chance to win.

TIME INSIDE is running out.
When will my clock break?