Incase you missed the point:
I only fume like this 'cause I am jealous.
And don't know how to handle so much jealousy at one time
That’s why I have so much self-worth issues…
I blame no one for being them selves; I can only blame myself for being me. This may not make sense but I am constantly frustrated with myself to do BETTER. It is like a personal strive to do better, like I HAVE to do better or I have failed.
I know I prolly shouldn’t, but it has been a part of me since I was little. I let jealousy get in the way of relations ‘cause I am afraid I won’t amount up to everything around me. Like I have been training all my life for something, something that means the world. Every failure pounds down against my mind, weakening me for another blow.
It may not make sense, but if you must compare it to English... I am like Gene trying to be Finny. I want to have a lot of friends, be happy all the time and yeah.. you get the point.
The only difference is that I would rather take it out on myself then others… I gtg night
And don't know how to handle so much jealousy at one time
That’s why I have so much self-worth issues…
I blame no one for being them selves; I can only blame myself for being me. This may not make sense but I am constantly frustrated with myself to do BETTER. It is like a personal strive to do better, like I HAVE to do better or I have failed.
I know I prolly shouldn’t, but it has been a part of me since I was little. I let jealousy get in the way of relations ‘cause I am afraid I won’t amount up to everything around me. Like I have been training all my life for something, something that means the world. Every failure pounds down against my mind, weakening me for another blow.
It may not make sense, but if you must compare it to English... I am like Gene trying to be Finny. I want to have a lot of friends, be happy all the time and yeah.. you get the point.
The only difference is that I would rather take it out on myself then others… I gtg night