I wish I could get across as well as when I write poetry
I have gotten all of this in today alone:
“beckie's i'm sorry that we didn't take you today. but i didn't even know that we were doing anything. I feel bad that u feel like you always being left out and such and i'm really sorry but like i've said i try to incoperate you in everything we all do. I'll make sure that u come next time. ur one of my best friends and you should know that we don;t mean to leave you out on things .”
“Beckie if your talking about us going today, first off it was just gonna be me cause Shawn wanted to Hang out. But then they were Gab's friends before they were mine so I couldnt just be like oh I'm just going.
Your like the best friend a girl could ever ask for. And I mean that with everything I have in my body. Just sometimes I do like to hang out with other people, and the whole thing was confusing from the start. I wasn't even sure of what I was gonna do about going up there till like 45 minutes before I left.
I'm sooo sorry I make you feel like this. Seriously, i feel like I'm a terrible person and it just... Hurts to think that I'm hurting you like that.”
“And I dont feel like dealing with drama. My head hurtss. And ahhhhh.
And I'm actually kinda really happy right now so yeaa, things arent gonna really ruin my mood at the current moment.”
“idk why but yeah i'm sorry that beckie keeps thinking that we're trying to ditch her because we aren't ghod it pisses me off because she always posting that and the problem is that i always try to incorperate her. Beckie is on of my bestfriends and sometimes it hurts when she says that nobody cares for her when i'm right there. idk.”
WHAT IS THIS ALL ABOUT!?!?!?!
I NEVER ASKED ANYONE TO BE SORRY FOR ME.
I NEVER SAID I WAS MAD AT ANYONE.
I NEVER BLAMED ANYONE BUT MYSELF.
I JUST SAID THAT I THOUGHT IT WAS STUPID THAT
I COULDN’T GO WHEN I WAS INVITED AND EVERYTHING.
I PROBABLY COULDN’T HAVE GONE ANYWAY ‘CAUSE MY MOM!!!
SO I DON’T UNDERTSAND WHY EVERYTHIGN THINKS THAT I THINK
THAT THEY DON’T CARE
I KNOW THEY CARE
I NEVER ASKED FOR PITY
Ugh, maybe if people actually understood, they’d see that I was only frustrated because I can’t change what I want to change. I can’t make it so that I can go everyone and get involved in everything. I don’t expect anyone to be around me all the time, to invite me places, to be buddy-buddy.
I have known this my whole life
So why is everyone saying sorry, getting pissed at me and calling it “drama”?
My words feel like they are being twisted around into accusations of betrayal.
I know people are my friends, I don’t need you to prove it to me and drag me behind you like a little puppy. I don’t expect to be taken everywhere with you and I DON’T want you to take me somewhere with you because you think you owe me/you should.
DON’T EVER PITY ME
“beckie's i'm sorry that we didn't take you today. but i didn't even know that we were doing anything. I feel bad that u feel like you always being left out and such and i'm really sorry but like i've said i try to incoperate you in everything we all do. I'll make sure that u come next time. ur one of my best friends and you should know that we don;t mean to leave you out on things .”
“Beckie if your talking about us going today, first off it was just gonna be me cause Shawn wanted to Hang out. But then they were Gab's friends before they were mine so I couldnt just be like oh I'm just going.
Your like the best friend a girl could ever ask for. And I mean that with everything I have in my body. Just sometimes I do like to hang out with other people, and the whole thing was confusing from the start. I wasn't even sure of what I was gonna do about going up there till like 45 minutes before I left.
I'm sooo sorry I make you feel like this. Seriously, i feel like I'm a terrible person and it just... Hurts to think that I'm hurting you like that.”
“And I dont feel like dealing with drama. My head hurtss. And ahhhhh.
And I'm actually kinda really happy right now so yeaa, things arent gonna really ruin my mood at the current moment.”
“idk why but yeah i'm sorry that beckie keeps thinking that we're trying to ditch her because we aren't ghod it pisses me off because she always posting that and the problem is that i always try to incorperate her. Beckie is on of my bestfriends and sometimes it hurts when she says that nobody cares for her when i'm right there. idk.”
WHAT IS THIS ALL ABOUT!?!?!?!
I NEVER ASKED ANYONE TO BE SORRY FOR ME.
I NEVER SAID I WAS MAD AT ANYONE.
I NEVER BLAMED ANYONE BUT MYSELF.
I JUST SAID THAT I THOUGHT IT WAS STUPID THAT
I COULDN’T GO WHEN I WAS INVITED AND EVERYTHING.
I PROBABLY COULDN’T HAVE GONE ANYWAY ‘CAUSE MY MOM!!!
SO I DON’T UNDERTSAND WHY EVERYTHIGN THINKS THAT I THINK
THAT THEY DON’T CARE
I KNOW THEY CARE
I NEVER ASKED FOR PITY
Ugh, maybe if people actually understood, they’d see that I was only frustrated because I can’t change what I want to change. I can’t make it so that I can go everyone and get involved in everything. I don’t expect anyone to be around me all the time, to invite me places, to be buddy-buddy.
I have known this my whole life
So why is everyone saying sorry, getting pissed at me and calling it “drama”?
My words feel like they are being twisted around into accusations of betrayal.
I know people are my friends, I don’t need you to prove it to me and drag me behind you like a little puppy. I don’t expect to be taken everywhere with you and I DON’T want you to take me somewhere with you because you think you owe me/you should.
DON’T EVER PITY ME