New Year's in half an hour
Was over at mark's earlier, but I had to come home cuz' my mother always thinks it will be the last new year's my family will have together. This happens again I swear, and she says the same thing next year, I'll remember what she said before. . .and leave.
I don't really think it's fair to be with either of my parents for new years. It's like being in tug-of-war constantly when I'm home. I can't wait to go back to Tallahassee so I don't have to hear the bitch fits, or the I-think-your-mother-is-crazy lectures. I'm so fed up with them both. I was really hoping 2007 would bring something to look forward to, but so far I think it's the same, probably the same as any other year. Anxiety, frustration and awkwardness.
I wish that my parents would both act like adults, and just deal instead of running to their lawyers over menial things such as jewelry and tupper ware. I wish home was something I would like to come home to. I wish my father weren't manipulative and my mother not an irrational extremist.
I want a clean slate. I want to build myself on a firm foundation. I'd rather be anywhere but here.
In 11 months I'll be twenty, I think it's about time I take control of where I want to be. Bringing in the new year like this feels desolate, hostile and unwelcoming. Call me superstitious, but I don't want the rest of the year to feel like this.
I don't really think it's fair to be with either of my parents for new years. It's like being in tug-of-war constantly when I'm home. I can't wait to go back to Tallahassee so I don't have to hear the bitch fits, or the I-think-your-mother-is-crazy lectures. I'm so fed up with them both. I was really hoping 2007 would bring something to look forward to, but so far I think it's the same, probably the same as any other year. Anxiety, frustration and awkwardness.
I wish that my parents would both act like adults, and just deal instead of running to their lawyers over menial things such as jewelry and tupper ware. I wish home was something I would like to come home to. I wish my father weren't manipulative and my mother not an irrational extremist.
I want a clean slate. I want to build myself on a firm foundation. I'd rather be anywhere but here.
In 11 months I'll be twenty, I think it's about time I take control of where I want to be. Bringing in the new year like this feels desolate, hostile and unwelcoming. Call me superstitious, but I don't want the rest of the year to feel like this.