Milk + Cereal = Jeorb
::stretches::
damn... where the fuck am I?
So right now I'm a 23 year old man living in the basement of a friend's parent's house. The aforementioned friend is not only the oldest child in the house, but she's delightfully attractive and she's only 17. Her parents are trusting as fuck, no need however, seeing as the girl is more of a younger sister to me than anything.
I have approximately 9 more days here, I say approximately because It was never established where the start point of my 2 weeks here was. I stayed a couple nights, and then they offered to let me stay for two weeks. Anyhow, I'm in negotiations with a landlord about an apartment not too far from where I was before. East of Vandyke this time, about midpoint between Hall and 21 mile. The apartment is going for $575 a month. That's doable, but I need to establish a second job.
Good news there, I have an interview at Bed, Bath, and Beyond on Tuesday. I'm hoping I can pull this out of my ass. I'm starting to think that the personality tests are what's failing me. I usually answer towards a hard-working, positive, go-getter, whereas I think most places are looking for a mindless drone with a smile. I'm going to stick to who I am on this next personality test and hopefully I'm what they need. I explained to the guy that I'm looking for a job where I can get training out of the way, just before the holiday season. The assistant manager seemed very pleased with this particular comment, so I'm hoping that will ride up to higher management as a "good word".
I really need a job at a restaurant (when ever I spell that word, I think in my head "rest-O-rant"... it helps me spell it properly). Rest-O-rant jeorbs pay off quick during the holiday season. Even after I get a second job, I may still be able to pick up a seasonal restaurant job, jsut to use them for the moneys. "Liquid Charisma" + "My Blood" = "Superpower Serum"? Bioshock... hmmmmm... atom... Mr. Bubbles... Rosie! The Riveter!...
Where was I? Oh yes, I'm going to start cheating the system. I'll have a more realistic job, and then take up restaurant jobs only during the holidays because that's the only time of year that they are worth it. This strategy should allow me to gain money in large bursts when it matters most.
Also in financial news, my ex Ashley has spoken out that she wants to pay me back what she owes. We've agreed on the sum of $1,600, payable in increments of $200, bi-weekly, beginning with Wed, September 10th. This is good news. If I can pretend that money doesn't exist until I get it all, then she jsut bought me a car. She should be payed off by the end of May. She offered to sign a contract. I explained to her that it won't be necessary. I continued to explain that I don't trust her, with or without a contract. If she is going to pay me, she's going to pay. It's up to her whether she gains any respect from me, ever again, or is completely annulled from my life entirely. She understands how I feel about it and still agrees to the payments.
I'm noticing a pattern in my life above anything I'd ever imagined. It's something that I've determined needs, at this point to be prepared for, rather than surviving through it. It's called August. This August I lost one of the best homes I've ever had. Last august I was hit by a car and then shortly thereafter had to endure a grueling Michigan job-hunt because I had quit a terrible job without getting a new one first. The august before that I had to endure terrible emotional stresses and also... in early September, got hit by a car. My first year of college ended well and then in August I found out that my fiance was cheating on me. She said, "You didn't actually think I was going to marry you, did you?"
This is a frustrating thing and it's bad enough that I've decided I'm going to start setting aside money in preparation for this next August. I have reason, not necessarily logical, or reliable reason, that preparing for it is a good idea. I decided to do some astro-chart research. This included checking my biorhythm chart. I've never thought this much into it.
A biorhythm chart consists of 7 elements: Emotional, Physical, Intellectual, Intuitive, Spiritual, Aesthetic, and Self Awareness. They make waves across a time-line, at their own rates but the patterns are pretty consistent over the years. Sure enough, my biorhythm chart shows that between August 27th and September 8th, 5 out of 7 aspects are dangerously low. The only aspects that are, even remotely close to high levels, are my Physical Self, and my Intuitive Self. So I can trust my instincts and be confident that I'll make it out alive at the other end or the depression. Whether this is a believable source or not is besides the point. I've been through the worst parts of my life during the month of August and I intend to be better equipped for such events in the future. Saving money never hurt anyone.
In more detail, During the period of Sept. 1st-6th my Intellectual, Emotional, Spiritual, and Aesthetic Self, and also my Self Awareness, will all be at all-time lows. Whereas in that exact period I'll be experiencing an all-time high from both my Intuitive, and my Physical Self. My Intuitive self is then going into recession whereas my physical self remains high while my Intellectual, and Emotional Self both begin to make a strong climb.
In brighter news, I've been reading the new Dean Koontz comics. Frankenstien is amazing. I less-than three it. The animation looks much like the old Men in Black cartoon. The story is exactly like the TV series that aired about 5 years ago and didn't last a season due to it's dark nature. I've owned the mini-movie prequel for quite some time now. Now that the comic is coming out (first two issues only, so far) I'm very pleased to be able to continue the story.
That's all I have for today, I'll be sure to update once I meet with the potential Land-Lord.
I learned how to do LJ cuts... idk if they are going to work but hopefully it makes lives a bit easier. I'm longwinded, sorry. :/
Fin.
Oh... and uh... I'm single now. I'm not too pleased about it because after having her crying in my arms for 85 min. and then her breaking up with me, I realized that she couldn't take the pressure when I needed her most so she ran. I don't know what to make of it. It was obvious that she didn't want to break up. She hasn't said much to me since and is showing no indication of this being difficult for her at all, which makes sense because of the sort of person she is (shy, always feels like she's bothering you) and the people she's around.
I'm going to wait until her sister goes away to school before reestablishing close contact. Not to avoid her sister, but because her sister guilt trips her all the time about how they "never get to spend time together" (which isn't true at all) so I figure that we ought to both make the best of this time apart. I need to reconstruct myself as a respectable human being and she needs to find herself in all of the stress that's going on around her.
She's completely new to the whole relationship thing. I've always tried to be there for her rather than push her or teach her about it. I don't want to over-influence her like some of the other people in her life do so all I can do is watch. I really don't know if we will ever get back together and that scares me to death. My chest hurts every time I think about it.
I have this fear that she's going to end up dating Eric/k and loving him because she's known him longer and I was a stepping stone to knowing how to have a relationship. I don't want to loose her. She's amazing, she's everything I've always wanted and needed and then some. She beat me in Mario Kart, for Jebus Sake... and I'm jsut a waste of time for her because she has better things to do...
...I don't want to get over this one. I want her back.
damn... where the fuck am I?
So right now I'm a 23 year old man living in the basement of a friend's parent's house. The aforementioned friend is not only the oldest child in the house, but she's delightfully attractive and she's only 17. Her parents are trusting as fuck, no need however, seeing as the girl is more of a younger sister to me than anything.
I have approximately 9 more days here, I say approximately because It was never established where the start point of my 2 weeks here was. I stayed a couple nights, and then they offered to let me stay for two weeks. Anyhow, I'm in negotiations with a landlord about an apartment not too far from where I was before. East of Vandyke this time, about midpoint between Hall and 21 mile. The apartment is going for $575 a month. That's doable, but I need to establish a second job.
Good news there, I have an interview at Bed, Bath, and Beyond on Tuesday. I'm hoping I can pull this out of my ass. I'm starting to think that the personality tests are what's failing me. I usually answer towards a hard-working, positive, go-getter, whereas I think most places are looking for a mindless drone with a smile. I'm going to stick to who I am on this next personality test and hopefully I'm what they need. I explained to the guy that I'm looking for a job where I can get training out of the way, just before the holiday season. The assistant manager seemed very pleased with this particular comment, so I'm hoping that will ride up to higher management as a "good word".
I really need a job at a restaurant (when ever I spell that word, I think in my head "rest-O-rant"... it helps me spell it properly). Rest-O-rant jeorbs pay off quick during the holiday season. Even after I get a second job, I may still be able to pick up a seasonal restaurant job, jsut to use them for the moneys. "Liquid Charisma" + "My Blood" = "Superpower Serum"? Bioshock... hmmmmm... atom... Mr. Bubbles... Rosie! The Riveter!...
Where was I? Oh yes, I'm going to start cheating the system. I'll have a more realistic job, and then take up restaurant jobs only during the holidays because that's the only time of year that they are worth it. This strategy should allow me to gain money in large bursts when it matters most.
Also in financial news, my ex Ashley has spoken out that she wants to pay me back what she owes. We've agreed on the sum of $1,600, payable in increments of $200, bi-weekly, beginning with Wed, September 10th. This is good news. If I can pretend that money doesn't exist until I get it all, then she jsut bought me a car. She should be payed off by the end of May. She offered to sign a contract. I explained to her that it won't be necessary. I continued to explain that I don't trust her, with or without a contract. If she is going to pay me, she's going to pay. It's up to her whether she gains any respect from me, ever again, or is completely annulled from my life entirely. She understands how I feel about it and still agrees to the payments.
I'm noticing a pattern in my life above anything I'd ever imagined. It's something that I've determined needs, at this point to be prepared for, rather than surviving through it. It's called August. This August I lost one of the best homes I've ever had. Last august I was hit by a car and then shortly thereafter had to endure a grueling Michigan job-hunt because I had quit a terrible job without getting a new one first. The august before that I had to endure terrible emotional stresses and also... in early September, got hit by a car. My first year of college ended well and then in August I found out that my fiance was cheating on me. She said, "You didn't actually think I was going to marry you, did you?"
This is a frustrating thing and it's bad enough that I've decided I'm going to start setting aside money in preparation for this next August. I have reason, not necessarily logical, or reliable reason, that preparing for it is a good idea. I decided to do some astro-chart research. This included checking my biorhythm chart. I've never thought this much into it.
A biorhythm chart consists of 7 elements: Emotional, Physical, Intellectual, Intuitive, Spiritual, Aesthetic, and Self Awareness. They make waves across a time-line, at their own rates but the patterns are pretty consistent over the years. Sure enough, my biorhythm chart shows that between August 27th and September 8th, 5 out of 7 aspects are dangerously low. The only aspects that are, even remotely close to high levels, are my Physical Self, and my Intuitive Self. So I can trust my instincts and be confident that I'll make it out alive at the other end or the depression. Whether this is a believable source or not is besides the point. I've been through the worst parts of my life during the month of August and I intend to be better equipped for such events in the future. Saving money never hurt anyone.
In more detail, During the period of Sept. 1st-6th my Intellectual, Emotional, Spiritual, and Aesthetic Self, and also my Self Awareness, will all be at all-time lows. Whereas in that exact period I'll be experiencing an all-time high from both my Intuitive, and my Physical Self. My Intuitive self is then going into recession whereas my physical self remains high while my Intellectual, and Emotional Self both begin to make a strong climb.
In brighter news, I've been reading the new Dean Koontz comics. Frankenstien is amazing. I less-than three it. The animation looks much like the old Men in Black cartoon. The story is exactly like the TV series that aired about 5 years ago and didn't last a season due to it's dark nature. I've owned the mini-movie prequel for quite some time now. Now that the comic is coming out (first two issues only, so far) I'm very pleased to be able to continue the story.
That's all I have for today, I'll be sure to update once I meet with the potential Land-Lord.
I learned how to do LJ cuts... idk if they are going to work but hopefully it makes lives a bit easier. I'm longwinded, sorry. :/
Fin.
Oh... and uh... I'm single now. I'm not too pleased about it because after having her crying in my arms for 85 min. and then her breaking up with me, I realized that she couldn't take the pressure when I needed her most so she ran. I don't know what to make of it. It was obvious that she didn't want to break up. She hasn't said much to me since and is showing no indication of this being difficult for her at all, which makes sense because of the sort of person she is (shy, always feels like she's bothering you) and the people she's around.
I'm going to wait until her sister goes away to school before reestablishing close contact. Not to avoid her sister, but because her sister guilt trips her all the time about how they "never get to spend time together" (which isn't true at all) so I figure that we ought to both make the best of this time apart. I need to reconstruct myself as a respectable human being and she needs to find herself in all of the stress that's going on around her.
She's completely new to the whole relationship thing. I've always tried to be there for her rather than push her or teach her about it. I don't want to over-influence her like some of the other people in her life do so all I can do is watch. I really don't know if we will ever get back together and that scares me to death. My chest hurts every time I think about it.
I have this fear that she's going to end up dating Eric/k and loving him because she's known him longer and I was a stepping stone to knowing how to have a relationship. I don't want to loose her. She's amazing, she's everything I've always wanted and needed and then some. She beat me in Mario Kart, for Jebus Sake... and I'm jsut a waste of time for her because she has better things to do...
...I don't want to get over this one. I want her back.