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dear friends, I think this stupid neck pain is driving me mad. I can't seem to think past it. It is much less intense than before, but I'm still unable to do much, mostly because of remembered intensity. It pangs now like it did right before the world would disappear in whimpering, and I'm so afraid to do... anything to bring that back.
I end up immobile for more days and convincing myself that not moving will help it to heal so maybe the next day it'll be better. It never is though. The unending-ness of this is... torture. I keep paralyzing myself because of it. My mind's in constant terror. It sucks.
School starts again Monday. Lord help those children if I'm still not better by then. I just can't seem to think.
I end up immobile for more days and convincing myself that not moving will help it to heal so maybe the next day it'll be better. It never is though. The unending-ness of this is... torture. I keep paralyzing myself because of it. My mind's in constant terror. It sucks.
School starts again Monday. Lord help those children if I'm still not better by then. I just can't seem to think.