June.

[lxuisa]

Haven't been here in a long while. I really miss writing and penning down my every thought, and writing queer verses, and indirect messages and all that stuff. The most satisfying thing is how a reader comes to realise the subtle message underlying the written verse, that means something greater. It is exciting. Maybe most of the time, nobody gets what I write, and perhaps people dismiss it as emo poems or bitterness. But I am so often misunderstood I have grown to enjoy it. Guess it makes me feel somewhat special. June has been quite the same, work, work work. That's about it. But I quit my job (Cue Kallang Wave!)... and went for church camp. I found rest in Batam, just getting away, getting to know God's direction a wee bit more. Unfortunately, I feel older every day and it makes me feel lousy about myself. With age, comes responsibility and commitment you may not exactly want. These things don't take "No" for an answer as well. But responsibility gives you authority to some extent, so I guess it balances out in the end. Previous things that you could not do when younger, for fear that it is rude (Speaking up, and commenting about inefficient procedures) - I can do, now.

Life is Relative.

And the knowledge that nothing is certain, excites me. :)