why
tonight, what words could describe the hell i went through tonight? while everyone was at the movies, or the dance, or doing whatever....i was at the fucking hospital for like 3 hours to see if my father would survive his first heartattack. yeah, a little bit scary? id say fucking so. like seriously, you never think shit like this would or could happen to you or your family. but ya know what? your wrong, because thats exactly what i thought about my family. but evidently shit happens that you cant stop. and i feel like such an asshole because like i never really appreciated my father until now. he's not the best,and he isnt a big part of my life right now, but i feel like the biggest asshole ever. this whole night i was thinking about myself, and my plans. and not even thinking about anyone else...now i know its not my fault, but still. i dunno, so much shit is happening in my life right now. and seriously who gives a fuck? im not even sure i really care right now. thats how positive i am this moment. i wish i had one person, just one person, that i could always talk to, and always have a shoulder to cry on. all i need is a best friend right now.