time is aflyin
the days seem shorter and the wather nicer. my goal of the navy seems to be getting pushed back more and more - due to several reasons its now looking like early august.. which is good. me and pops havent been talking for several months and im comfortable with that. me and mom have been acting like the dynamic duo of the house hold. Ive been working two jobs and making a comfortable amount of money where i can put some on the side, give some to mom, and still have money for the week to go out and have fun if and when i have time. no time for women really.. not thaty ive found any interesting or that i find attractive. I feel like the bouncer at the club. I meet a beautiful attractive girl and feel like i have to card them to verify their age.. and then when i ask em how old.. you can see the front of acting mature drop rather quickly.... great. it sucks cus you see this drop dead gorgeous girl and she hasnt even graduated highschool yet.. how gay. so i hear the navy have woman on board now. that might be interesting. so many questions i have for the navy and im not scared or anxious or anything.. just wish august would come sooner than later. trying to reconnect with some old girls i havent talked to in forever.. see if the connection that i never bothered to persue is my own damn fault or if its really just nothing. oh well. so much to do in what seems to be so little time.. for a greater good i tell myself.. why am i imagining a small portion of struggle and lots of paradise thereafter. i just wish i could grab all my woodbridge family for the ride. jesse, edwin, dougy, steph, everyone.. stick em in a suitcase and take em with me. the positive is in 4 years if and when i do return.. i will be driving again, hopefully a new car, graduated from college, debt free, and fuckin cut like double bladed knife slicing up paper..i know. i wanna get my cd done.. but i dont think thatll happen until i get enough money to get a laptop.. and even then the one i want is 2000.. so many thoughts.. so many wants and dreams.. and my pivotal decisions put me at a vantage.. good luck.