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I just walked out of a horrible, abusive relationship of two and a half years. FINALLY I DID IT. I seriously thought either he was going to kill me or I was going to kill myself if I was in it any longer.
I got an awesome full time receptionist job at a stage lighting/sound company that does stage details for big corporate buisness meetings. They also do the lighting for bands while they are on tour. They are on tour with Gwen Stefani right now. They do all of Alice Coopers shows and my manager goes golfing with Alice once a week. Not to mention, they provide bomb ass snacks all day long. (too good to be true right?) Everybody is so laidback and calm, I feel at home here.
I got my car back from my ex. FINALLY.
I changed my phone number
I hang out with Allyson and Keaton all the time
Play basketball, rollerblade, hike, and go fishing nowadays. I caught an enormous catfish the last time. I haven't caught a fish since I was in elementary.
Moved back in the walker residence. to;
a)get away from xboyfriend
b)mom needs help doing everyday things now that shes in a scooter or walker
c)excellent choices in munchies according to our pantry.
I don't have my system anymore:( but i will very soon.
baby steps.....
My mom is really sick, more sick then I let myself beleive. She informed me of her petscan not looking too good. The tumors are progressing the way you wouldn't want them to. She is always in so much pain and 40% of the time shes all hopped up on pain killers she doesn't act/feel like herself. She told me if she doesn't want to take the medication they want to switch her to she'd have only about a year to live. Doesn't that sound unreal? Everyday I catch myself wandering in thoughts life without my mom around. :-( and I start to get so lonely that I could explode with emptiness.
I try my best to accept the experiences in life, even this one and i've done a damn good job. I've tried to make the best of it with my mom and I don't really have time to take her for granet. I just hate knowing that she's going through so much pain.
arghhhh... and my poor papa. I'm glad he teaches at Pueblo now. He'd be the best teacher in the world. No joke.
Im still getting use to making plans for myself and getting to do what I want again so i'm just tryin to adjust. I am putting forth more effort with my friends.
I wish we wouldn't of had such akward timing, to realize what we were worth.
Oh well, I suppose I will make the best of the evening and play some basketball and watch tv
and eat
a lot.
I got an awesome full time receptionist job at a stage lighting/sound company that does stage details for big corporate buisness meetings. They also do the lighting for bands while they are on tour. They are on tour with Gwen Stefani right now. They do all of Alice Coopers shows and my manager goes golfing with Alice once a week. Not to mention, they provide bomb ass snacks all day long. (too good to be true right?) Everybody is so laidback and calm, I feel at home here.
I got my car back from my ex. FINALLY.
I changed my phone number
I hang out with Allyson and Keaton all the time
Play basketball, rollerblade, hike, and go fishing nowadays. I caught an enormous catfish the last time. I haven't caught a fish since I was in elementary.
Moved back in the walker residence. to;
a)get away from xboyfriend
b)mom needs help doing everyday things now that shes in a scooter or walker
c)excellent choices in munchies according to our pantry.
I don't have my system anymore:( but i will very soon.
baby steps.....
My mom is really sick, more sick then I let myself beleive. She informed me of her petscan not looking too good. The tumors are progressing the way you wouldn't want them to. She is always in so much pain and 40% of the time shes all hopped up on pain killers she doesn't act/feel like herself. She told me if she doesn't want to take the medication they want to switch her to she'd have only about a year to live. Doesn't that sound unreal? Everyday I catch myself wandering in thoughts life without my mom around. :-( and I start to get so lonely that I could explode with emptiness.
I try my best to accept the experiences in life, even this one and i've done a damn good job. I've tried to make the best of it with my mom and I don't really have time to take her for granet. I just hate knowing that she's going through so much pain.
arghhhh... and my poor papa. I'm glad he teaches at Pueblo now. He'd be the best teacher in the world. No joke.
Im still getting use to making plans for myself and getting to do what I want again so i'm just tryin to adjust. I am putting forth more effort with my friends.
I wish we wouldn't of had such akward timing, to realize what we were worth.
Oh well, I suppose I will make the best of the evening and play some basketball and watch tv
and eat
a lot.