Heartbroken and Mending
What is it a 37 year old gay man can share as his experience as once again a single man?
Especially when it’s only two failed relationships. All I can say is that this shit with dating is difficult. You would think especially after my last one that two educated men one at the age of 37 now (me) and the other at 47 that one/we could figure it out. Two educated and smart men that could work through issues and find some sort resolve.
What does it require these days? What is the answer? What does it require for one to give up to know he’s the one. Because to be honest at this point I don’t know; at this point in my life I have come to find that one must relinquish some value in one’s life. And what’s unfortunate is that I found it to be some of the core relationships and values I have come to cherish and believe invaluable. Did I do the right thing in walking away? I feel that I did. Do I feel that that one had value in my life? Absolutelty. Do I feel that he compromised me….yes in some way. Do I find myself asking the value in the relationship was something great? It completely was. Did he compromise and say things that were unforgivable? Absolutely. Do I still love him? Absolutely!
How do you find the right one? And as much as I say I am okay with living alone on my own terms am I really? I must be but I am not. I still have that desire to find the one that celebrates me the day before I succumb. More to be said later…..