How does one become so resilient to lifes pains?
Lately I have been the focus to accusations, untruths, disrespect and verbal attacks. As far as I know none of which I deserved. Now I will be the first to admit I am not perfect in any way, but in general I mean well for everyone around me. So where does one find the thick skin to deflect and move on? I hurt deeply, I cry senselessly and ponder my own existence more often than I am comfortable with.
Then there are those close to you that you love. Damn them, as I am at fault too. I know how to push my husbands buttons as at times it is the only way I can get him to listen. The problem is that it is dangerous territory as he then turns it around and places all the blame on me making me feel like shit. He does no wrong, and I do all wrong. I hate how he makes me feel victimized. What scares me is he about pushed me to the edge.
So how do I rid myself of this curse of sensitivity and vulnerability? How do I get thick skin without turning into and acting like those that throw their assaults at me. Oh trust me in my head silently I am screaming, "BITE ME" and "FUCK OFF", but is not who I am.
Then there are those close to you that you love. Damn them, as I am at fault too. I know how to push my husbands buttons as at times it is the only way I can get him to listen. The problem is that it is dangerous territory as he then turns it around and places all the blame on me making me feel like shit. He does no wrong, and I do all wrong. I hate how he makes me feel victimized. What scares me is he about pushed me to the edge.
So how do I rid myself of this curse of sensitivity and vulnerability? How do I get thick skin without turning into and acting like those that throw their assaults at me. Oh trust me in my head silently I am screaming, "BITE ME" and "FUCK OFF", but is not who I am.