The Trouble With Love Is.. It Can Tear You Up Inside
Looking up at the sky I see your eyes as I drift away to the thought of your voice..
^Wrote that in Denver and just found it.. lol i never added anything to it or anything but i kinda like it just like that..
So I decided not to delete my lj.. i need it to write.. but i'm thinkin bout gettin a regular journal so i don't have to worry about what i can and can't write. Cause i've found out that if i don't write everyday i don't feel good.. like i seriously get sick cause i can't hold things in, i dunno why but i physicaly can't.. anyways i have surgery in the morning, not quite in the morning.. more like 2 but i have to be there at 11 so yeah, but i'm not gunna go to sleep tonight so that i can eat cause i didn't get to before my last surgery and i was a bitch to everyone.. i need my food damnit or i get really grumpy.. but yes i hate my mother.. is she reads this i really don't give a fuck anymore.. she invades my privacy all the time! i'm sick of it.. now i know she's thinking.. "it's for her own good, i'm just trying to protect her" but you know what.. i've proven how much stronger i am then her and i can take care of myself.. she thinks i'm such a bad kid and a 'drunk' well you know what.. compared to a lot of the kids i know i'm soo good and she should be so happy to have me the way i am. true i've drank.. true i've smoked but i quit for Jonathan and i'm actually a good kid.. not the best but i am a good kid. and i know so much about her that she has no idea nor did she ever think i would know and i will never be like that.. never.. i'm such a better person than that. god i wanna live with my dad so bad.. if it weren't for my docters here and a certain handful of friends i would be gone.. in Colorado right now. damn i kinda hope she reads this now.. that's what you get for going into my stuff when you know you shouldn't.. and if you do read it.. i'll never forgive you for what you took from my room.. you know what it is and i will never.. NEVER fogive you for it..
^Wrote that in Denver and just found it.. lol i never added anything to it or anything but i kinda like it just like that..
So I decided not to delete my lj.. i need it to write.. but i'm thinkin bout gettin a regular journal so i don't have to worry about what i can and can't write. Cause i've found out that if i don't write everyday i don't feel good.. like i seriously get sick cause i can't hold things in, i dunno why but i physicaly can't.. anyways i have surgery in the morning, not quite in the morning.. more like 2 but i have to be there at 11 so yeah, but i'm not gunna go to sleep tonight so that i can eat cause i didn't get to before my last surgery and i was a bitch to everyone.. i need my food damnit or i get really grumpy.. but yes i hate my mother.. is she reads this i really don't give a fuck anymore.. she invades my privacy all the time! i'm sick of it.. now i know she's thinking.. "it's for her own good, i'm just trying to protect her" but you know what.. i've proven how much stronger i am then her and i can take care of myself.. she thinks i'm such a bad kid and a 'drunk' well you know what.. compared to a lot of the kids i know i'm soo good and she should be so happy to have me the way i am. true i've drank.. true i've smoked but i quit for Jonathan and i'm actually a good kid.. not the best but i am a good kid. and i know so much about her that she has no idea nor did she ever think i would know and i will never be like that.. never.. i'm such a better person than that. god i wanna live with my dad so bad.. if it weren't for my docters here and a certain handful of friends i would be gone.. in Colorado right now. damn i kinda hope she reads this now.. that's what you get for going into my stuff when you know you shouldn't.. and if you do read it.. i'll never forgive you for what you took from my room.. you know what it is and i will never.. NEVER fogive you for it..