Gone. fucking gone.
I've known it for months...but it just hit me like never before over the weekend. Casey is gone. He's dead. He's dead and I'll never be able to talk to him ever again. Why did I just get this? Was I in some type of denial? I mean, I knew he was...I didn't try to contradict that. But...It's just, he's dead. For no reason. There is no reason why he couldn't still be alive today. He's fucking dead.