i cant stop thinkin bout him...
2day was the 1st day bak 2 skool...i thought i wuld b really tired 2day when i woke^ kus i didnt go 2 sleep till lyke 4,i chylled w/mah sis lol and got in trouble...but neways i woke^ rite on tyme 2day brushed mah teeth,made mah lunch,got dressed,str8ened mah hair,did mah make^, had a piece of toast and left lol...2day went aight...i was happy kus Venicia didnt bring nethang ^ bout r fight,its lyke shes avoidin it but w/e its all good were str8 until she tries 2 control me again! lol bsides that i was happy 2 c every1 and findout wat they did on there break and wat they got 4 christmas...but while i was listenin 2 every1 @ the back of mah mynd i was thinkin hmmm i wonder where *he* is and if *hes* still mad @ me...so i went 2 go talk 2 Burak bout this stupid Uran crap and i saw *him*! it makes me so happy 2 c him and jus b in his arms! and it was even greater when i foundout he wasnt mad @ me! haha...the day went by aight i got alotta complements on mah shoes lol and mah schedules pretty much the same except i switched 2 regular english since im lyke failing and instead of personal fitness i got aerobics w/ Eddie! YAH! aerobics was the best class 2day kus we jus got 2 talk in the gym w/the other classes, i saw jaime LMAO enof said...trynna explain y i havent called him bak haha and i hungout w/ Dj Singer,hes a cutie! BUT not mah type...then i walked around w/ Stephanie and Casey and made fun of people and talked bout how we hate gyrls who think there so0o cool that they culd look us ^ and down! ew i hate gyrls! lol but i foundout sum stuff bout *him* that made me kinda sad,i wrote him a note and gave it 2 him 6th hour and i saw him after skool and walkin him 2 the weight room almost felt lyke we were 2gether again...but were not! lol i jus love bein w/him and seein him smile and i love how hes calm bout EVERYTHING, i wish i culd b lyke that! lol so0o i talked 2 him alil and i jus enjoyed bein close 2 him,in his arms,its lyke when im w/him the world stops and i dont notice ne1 but him! im not obcessed w/him i jus lyke him or mayb possibly love him :/ ofcorse all i get is a kiss on the cheek but he said thats wat people who arent goin out do :( BUT he did say we culd talk when me and Uran r done...so0o i dunno wat 2 do...kus Urans cute and funny and a good kisser lol but i mean thats bout it,i dont kno him that well,mayb kus we NEVER talk! but i mean he seems 2 think eveyrthings a joke and can never b serious...but on the other hand *he* isnt a guarentee, its not definite he will go out w/me kus hes scared of ME (lol) and commitment and i wanna help him! lol and its not definite we will work out kus he mite say aight but then bakout after alil bit...i jus dont wanna get hurt but i cant let go of *him*,and when im w/him its even harder, i cant imagine goin everyday seein him and not bein able 2 jump in his arms and kiss him and ask him how he is,or worst seein him w/another gyrl! that wuld KILL me (after i kill her ofcorse :) and he knos that! please if ne1 has advice 4 me comment kus im really confused and i needa decide now!!! thanx xo
P.S. Rachel i kno ur good @ this so0o u especially gimme advice please!!!