Belonging
My Piece in the Puzzle- Designed to Belong:
Remember your word to your servant, for you have given me hope. My comfort in my suffering is this: Your promise preserves my life. (Psalm 119: 49-50)
Papa,
I still remember your word to me. You showed me that I was like a piece of a puzzle, designed uniquely to belong right in the place you had for me. But over the course of my life I was abused and I changed who I was to survive. In my middle school and high school years I felt so different. I sanded down my edges, constantly trying to make myself fit and belong in places you didn’t create for me. I broke off so much of who you made me, and in the end I couldn’t remember who I was. So I came to you broken... you promised to restore me, to show me who I am in you (what part of your nature I can reflect to and in the body) , and to bring me to a place where I belong. I have never really felt like I belong... to You, to anybody. I am an orphan. But you have called me- How can I resist? Be faithful to your promise.
Many Walked Away:
“Many of his disciples when they heard this said, ‘This is a difficult statement; who can listen to it?’ As a result of this many of his disciples withdrew and were not walking with him anymore” John 6:60
Lord,
I am so afraid of my own response to your extended covenant. In my heart I am so willing but my teeth grind and my flesh-will fights my heart. I like my sin you see- I am far too friendly with my own independence to so willingly give it up. God I am at war with myself over this. Please help me to keep pressing towards you, so that I might work out my salvation, because I really do want to be able to enter covenant with you. I just don’t want to take this lightly. Jesus please come... Come show yourself to those who are seeking you. For “to whom shall we go? You have the words of eternal life.” (John 6:68)
Enduring Love:
“For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons,] neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, 39neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.” ( Romans 8:38-39)
Jesus,
Nothing can separate me from your love, except me. Except my own guilt and shame caused by my sin. You are only as far away as I can push you, but so often I keep you at a full arms length, because I feel so dirty, and I feel so hopeless. Change my heart... I want to love and to be loved. I am so tired of what the world says about love. It leaves me empty, and I want to experience what it is to be in covenant relationship with you, so that we may experience enduring love together.
Remember your word to your servant, for you have given me hope. My comfort in my suffering is this: Your promise preserves my life. (Psalm 119: 49-50)
Papa,
I still remember your word to me. You showed me that I was like a piece of a puzzle, designed uniquely to belong right in the place you had for me. But over the course of my life I was abused and I changed who I was to survive. In my middle school and high school years I felt so different. I sanded down my edges, constantly trying to make myself fit and belong in places you didn’t create for me. I broke off so much of who you made me, and in the end I couldn’t remember who I was. So I came to you broken... you promised to restore me, to show me who I am in you (what part of your nature I can reflect to and in the body) , and to bring me to a place where I belong. I have never really felt like I belong... to You, to anybody. I am an orphan. But you have called me- How can I resist? Be faithful to your promise.
Many Walked Away:
“Many of his disciples when they heard this said, ‘This is a difficult statement; who can listen to it?’ As a result of this many of his disciples withdrew and were not walking with him anymore” John 6:60
Lord,
I am so afraid of my own response to your extended covenant. In my heart I am so willing but my teeth grind and my flesh-will fights my heart. I like my sin you see- I am far too friendly with my own independence to so willingly give it up. God I am at war with myself over this. Please help me to keep pressing towards you, so that I might work out my salvation, because I really do want to be able to enter covenant with you. I just don’t want to take this lightly. Jesus please come... Come show yourself to those who are seeking you. For “to whom shall we go? You have the words of eternal life.” (John 6:68)
Enduring Love:
“For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons,] neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, 39neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.” ( Romans 8:38-39)
Jesus,
Nothing can separate me from your love, except me. Except my own guilt and shame caused by my sin. You are only as far away as I can push you, but so often I keep you at a full arms length, because I feel so dirty, and I feel so hopeless. Change my heart... I want to love and to be loved. I am so tired of what the world says about love. It leaves me empty, and I want to experience what it is to be in covenant relationship with you, so that we may experience enduring love together.