I feel like crap
For the last week or so I have been feelling really bad.
The circumstances of my life lately, and most likely with some help from quitting birth control, have reaquainted me with depression.
You know, that whole, I can think of a million things to do but I don't want to do any of them feeling.
I feel like I just want to bawl, but feel like I don't have enough reason to cry. I don't want to feel like I am crying because I feel sorry for myself, because I don't, I just feel bad.
I want to finish the shirt I've been sewing. I want to keep studying for my tour license. I want to look through my camping gear for the upcoming trip this weekend. I want to wrap Eric's birthday presents. But I can't make myself.
All I feel capable of is sleeping. I feel exhausted despite sleeping in until 11. I've been awake for less than 4 hours.
I haven't felt this way in a long time and I hate it.
Eric is the only person I can talk to about this down here and it just brings him down. I don't think he ever felt like this. I can't remember how to make this stop. I don't know if I can make this stop. This seems to be a just wait for it to pass thing.
I hate this.
The circumstances of my life lately, and most likely with some help from quitting birth control, have reaquainted me with depression.
You know, that whole, I can think of a million things to do but I don't want to do any of them feeling.
I feel like I just want to bawl, but feel like I don't have enough reason to cry. I don't want to feel like I am crying because I feel sorry for myself, because I don't, I just feel bad.
I want to finish the shirt I've been sewing. I want to keep studying for my tour license. I want to look through my camping gear for the upcoming trip this weekend. I want to wrap Eric's birthday presents. But I can't make myself.
All I feel capable of is sleeping. I feel exhausted despite sleeping in until 11. I've been awake for less than 4 hours.
I haven't felt this way in a long time and I hate it.
Eric is the only person I can talk to about this down here and it just brings him down. I don't think he ever felt like this. I can't remember how to make this stop. I don't know if I can make this stop. This seems to be a just wait for it to pass thing.
I hate this.