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To say that I'm pisssed off right now would be a vast understatement.
First off, don't ever get the idea that it is ok to issue an ultimatum to someone you aren't even seriously dating. Especially when it pertains to sex. Yes, we might have had relations in the past, but that does NOT give you the right to tell me that if I don't come over to fuck that it's all over. It's manipulative, and the sign of a desperate person. I don't have to threaten someone to get fucked, and I'll be damn sure that I'll never date anyone that would say that.
Secondly, in the midst of the tantrum, don't negate my sexual prowess. Because we both know what you said and what you did. You can tell me all you want, but I know that I made you almost pass out. And besides--only one of us got off that night, buck-o. And for all your trying, it certainly wasn't me. And I certainly wasn't the one holding me afterwards and trembling from pleasure while calling me a goddess.
Thirdly, this sucked for the very fact that despite myself, I was starting to like you. I looked forward to seeing you. But, if anything that the last 5 years has taught me since we dated the first time, it's this--I don't repeat my mistakes. The 18 year old Amber would have came crawling, rushing back to you. She would have obediently done whatever you asked just for the fact that it might gain her favour.
The 23 year-old Amber will never mindlessly obey anyone again.
I deserve better.
Lesson over.
First off, don't ever get the idea that it is ok to issue an ultimatum to someone you aren't even seriously dating. Especially when it pertains to sex. Yes, we might have had relations in the past, but that does NOT give you the right to tell me that if I don't come over to fuck that it's all over. It's manipulative, and the sign of a desperate person. I don't have to threaten someone to get fucked, and I'll be damn sure that I'll never date anyone that would say that.
Secondly, in the midst of the tantrum, don't negate my sexual prowess. Because we both know what you said and what you did. You can tell me all you want, but I know that I made you almost pass out. And besides--only one of us got off that night, buck-o. And for all your trying, it certainly wasn't me. And I certainly wasn't the one holding me afterwards and trembling from pleasure while calling me a goddess.
Thirdly, this sucked for the very fact that despite myself, I was starting to like you. I looked forward to seeing you. But, if anything that the last 5 years has taught me since we dated the first time, it's this--I don't repeat my mistakes. The 18 year old Amber would have came crawling, rushing back to you. She would have obediently done whatever you asked just for the fact that it might gain her favour.
The 23 year-old Amber will never mindlessly obey anyone again.
I deserve better.
Lesson over.