I don't even LIKE you.
So I'm not going back to Tennessee cuz he thinks its a waste of money for me to come for just the weekend.
And he's "gonna be home soon anyways."
June first.
Its not like thats forever or anything.
Its not like we're gonna miss our 2 year anniversary cuz he's fuckin 15 hours away.
Its not like none of that is a big deal to me either.
Its not like I miss him or anything...
This is all so hard. I hope its worth it. Two and a half more months till I even see him again. And talking twice a week doesn't help either. Sometimes it feels like I don't even have a boyfriend. I wish he didn't play baseball or he broke his arm so he couldn't or something. No, thats mean. I don't want him to break his arm. Be careful what you wish for, right? Ha. This is so shitty, and I'm being such a suck about it, but fuck you. You deal with this and tell me you like it.
Every time he leaves and ever day after that I tell myself I'm gonna suck it up and take it like a man, and for a long time I'll do it, then it just gets to where I CAN'T suck it up anymore because I'm at the breaking point, and there's nothing I can do about it. Thats the worst thing.
There's. Nothing. I. Can. Do.
I didn't think it was possible to miss someone this badly when they're still right here but it is. And I hate how I break down to him because I know he hates it too. But what the fuck else do I have. Its like there's no way to get it though his head.
YOU'RE making this hard on me.
And he's "gonna be home soon anyways."
June first.
Its not like thats forever or anything.
Its not like we're gonna miss our 2 year anniversary cuz he's fuckin 15 hours away.
Its not like none of that is a big deal to me either.
Its not like I miss him or anything...
This is all so hard. I hope its worth it. Two and a half more months till I even see him again. And talking twice a week doesn't help either. Sometimes it feels like I don't even have a boyfriend. I wish he didn't play baseball or he broke his arm so he couldn't or something. No, thats mean. I don't want him to break his arm. Be careful what you wish for, right? Ha. This is so shitty, and I'm being such a suck about it, but fuck you. You deal with this and tell me you like it.
Every time he leaves and ever day after that I tell myself I'm gonna suck it up and take it like a man, and for a long time I'll do it, then it just gets to where I CAN'T suck it up anymore because I'm at the breaking point, and there's nothing I can do about it. Thats the worst thing.
There's. Nothing. I. Can. Do.
I didn't think it was possible to miss someone this badly when they're still right here but it is. And I hate how I break down to him because I know he hates it too. But what the fuck else do I have. Its like there's no way to get it though his head.
YOU'RE making this hard on me.