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there arent that many times in my life where i feel like no words can be used to explain things. and i guess maybe i never thought that words could compare. but right now...there really arent any words or explanations that would satisfy me. there is nothing that anyone could say that would make me feel better.. or make this any easier. there are no kind thoughts or gestures that would make me think that its ok that all this has happened. that its ok that my life has always been ridiculously effected by this strange and amazingly stupid yet extremely significant force. at this point i'm beyond anger. and hurt. i'm past it all....yet i cant be. because i dont know how to be me...without this chip on my shoulder. and who would have thought i ever would have ended up here. back to the beginning. again.