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[luvvllybll9]

blah, im not really sure how i feel about today. i figured out dinner for prom and im just not going to touch it until that day when i need to make reservations, or maybe a few days before. but things are set. fantastic.

i went to the mall with bailey and steph today and it just made me realize that no matter how much we talk about changing and trying to be as close as we were it isnt going to happen. i just dont fit into this newfunpretty world. and i think im finally ok with it. i have other girlfriends who are going to be coming home. and who have been there even when they aren't physically. so its ok.

i know me and steph will always be friends, and it sucks that i dont think its ever going to get back to how it was. but i think at the same time it may be for the best. easy come easy go. i just hope thats not how they all end.

i really enjoy talking to mandi about all me girly crappy prom problems, she doesn't think any of it is dumb or me freaking out and over reacting. which i may be doing. but i like it, and thats how i get things done. and its nice to be able to talk to someone who doesn't make fun of me for it.