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Re-reading that last journal entry, I can't help but to laugh since I mentioned "my friend, John" getting us RENT tickets. Since then, I have fallen completely in love with him. He's one of the best things that has ever happened to me. I'm so thankful for him & I honestly cannot believe that I've fallen for someone who is so special and so caring. I could not be any happier with him. He's perfect. =)
Stephanie and I aren't talking...but what else is new? She stopped talking to me suddenly, and for once, I didn't go running to her asking her what was wrong. She's played this game with me for FAR too long and I'm done. I'm done giving her attention that she's BEGGING for. Once again...she's blaming ME for everything. It's MY fault that she stopped talking to me? Um. Yeah. Okay. But, I'm done caring. She's put me through so much shit and I just cannot deal with it anymore.
On another note dealing with friends...I could not thank Kelly, Kayla, & John enough. Those three have always been there for me the ENTIRE time they've known me. I love them all to death and I have no idea what I'd do without them. They are three of the very best friends anyone could ever ask for. I love you all so much.
I am so confused as to what I want to do after high school. I know I want to go onto college. But, whether I want to go to Mizzou or Stephen's...I have no idea. I don't know what I want to major in at Mizzou and I don't want to room with some random person. At Stephen's, I'd be able to room by myself, most likely, and join their choir since I already know their choir director...she was my choir teacher in 8th grade. But, I'd much rather go to a larger university...like Mizzou. WTF. I don't fucking know. I try to think about it all and I just get even more confused and stressed out about it all. Who knows.
Anyway. I'm so sorry for the major lack of updates. I don't even know if anyone will read this or not.
Stephanie and I aren't talking...but what else is new? She stopped talking to me suddenly, and for once, I didn't go running to her asking her what was wrong. She's played this game with me for FAR too long and I'm done. I'm done giving her attention that she's BEGGING for. Once again...she's blaming ME for everything. It's MY fault that she stopped talking to me? Um. Yeah. Okay. But, I'm done caring. She's put me through so much shit and I just cannot deal with it anymore.
On another note dealing with friends...I could not thank Kelly, Kayla, & John enough. Those three have always been there for me the ENTIRE time they've known me. I love them all to death and I have no idea what I'd do without them. They are three of the very best friends anyone could ever ask for. I love you all so much.
I am so confused as to what I want to do after high school. I know I want to go onto college. But, whether I want to go to Mizzou or Stephen's...I have no idea. I don't know what I want to major in at Mizzou and I don't want to room with some random person. At Stephen's, I'd be able to room by myself, most likely, and join their choir since I already know their choir director...she was my choir teacher in 8th grade. But, I'd much rather go to a larger university...like Mizzou. WTF. I don't fucking know. I try to think about it all and I just get even more confused and stressed out about it all. Who knows.
Anyway. I'm so sorry for the major lack of updates. I don't even know if anyone will read this or not.