not how I thought this would be
College has been nothing but a huge disappointment. Maybe I had some idealistic thought that it would be better, that it would be easy to fit in because there would be some many different people, and that even if it wasn't I had a group of friends from Manchester to fall back on. Well I was sooo wrong about this. I have like no real friends here, maybe its because I don't want them, I don't know. I mean, don't get me wrong, I have people who I'm friendly with. I eat lunch with people and sometimes do homework together, but its not much more than that. I guess all of this is brought on because of next year's housing. It's starting really soon, and I was under the impression that the four Manchester girls were going to try to get a suite together. Apparently I was wrong on that too, because Kayla recently informed me that she plans on living with Ashley, and I believe Shannon is staying with her room mate from this year. Things are just not going like I had thought they would. I want to transfer, but I know I shouldn't. This is a really good school, probably the best for me and my field. I just wish I had a true friend here, like someone I could rely on. Whatever... I think this year was just really bad for me and gave me a really bad taste of college life. Maybe it'll get better... maybe not. i really hope it does because I can't take much more of this. Like I hold back the urge to cry, just break down and let it all out. Grrr... Kelly transfer damnit! (I know you cant, its just wishful thinking) Grr... skipped WGS today to be better prepared for Stat, so I guess I should be heading out to that now. School blows...
Nicole
Nicole