BORING life
Here I sit alone at the computer,nothing to do but type away my life.This is what its come down to.The faint hope that a long lost friend or maybe even a stranger i have never met mey be a life line.
This is not the girl i use to be.Once upon a time i was funloving and exciting. The kind of person everyone wanted to be around.Now i feel like i am just someones wife and mother.Not that i am complaining but what i dont understand is why? Why is it that when you get married and have children you can no longer be that fun and outgoing person you once were? Maybe its just me that feels this way.
Everyday its the same routine.Derrick goes to work I clean the house fix dinner and wait for him to get home.He is my only life line to the outside world lately.When my friends found out i was pregnant they treated me like an invalid. its as if i have some kind of disease.So now derrick is all i have. My only outlet my only friend.
Is this too much pressure i am puttin on him? Is it too much to ask for him to be my life?Sometimes I think the pressure of it all gets to him. who could blame him he stills has all of his friends he has obligations to ppl other than me and it wears on him sometimes.I guess to him i am like a child always depending on him for everything i need and want.
What happens when it finally becomes too much for him to bare.How will i survive when my life line is cut?I guess what I am trying to get at is I COULD USE A FRIEND!!! A real friend one that wont turn there back on me when my lifestyle changes.
Maybe as adults we dont put as much into our adult friendships as we do into the friendships we have when we are children.you dont write yours and your friends names with the bff notations anymore and you dont rely on them once you start your own family.But just bc you grow up doesnt mean you dont need friends anymore.
Just a few things on my mind.
This is not the girl i use to be.Once upon a time i was funloving and exciting. The kind of person everyone wanted to be around.Now i feel like i am just someones wife and mother.Not that i am complaining but what i dont understand is why? Why is it that when you get married and have children you can no longer be that fun and outgoing person you once were? Maybe its just me that feels this way.
Everyday its the same routine.Derrick goes to work I clean the house fix dinner and wait for him to get home.He is my only life line to the outside world lately.When my friends found out i was pregnant they treated me like an invalid. its as if i have some kind of disease.So now derrick is all i have. My only outlet my only friend.
Is this too much pressure i am puttin on him? Is it too much to ask for him to be my life?Sometimes I think the pressure of it all gets to him. who could blame him he stills has all of his friends he has obligations to ppl other than me and it wears on him sometimes.I guess to him i am like a child always depending on him for everything i need and want.
What happens when it finally becomes too much for him to bare.How will i survive when my life line is cut?I guess what I am trying to get at is I COULD USE A FRIEND!!! A real friend one that wont turn there back on me when my lifestyle changes.
Maybe as adults we dont put as much into our adult friendships as we do into the friendships we have when we are children.you dont write yours and your friends names with the bff notations anymore and you dont rely on them once you start your own family.But just bc you grow up doesnt mean you dont need friends anymore.
Just a few things on my mind.