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[luvs2laf]

the anger that i have bottled up my whole life is about to bust. i can feel it and it's not going to be pretty. i have finally had it with some people. i need to make a change. at times i feel like i just need to spend all my time alone, that way no one can piss me off and no one can walk all over me. my problem is that i think too much and when i think too much i just get more mad. this can't be healthy. i was expecting to come home to this fun filled summer and its everything but that. so many things are running through my mind right now. it scares me because i've always been so sure of what i want in my life, i had a plan. now, i have no idea. i don't think that anyone could have as much bad luck as me. i'm waiting for it to be turned around, but it just keeps getting worse and worse.

target, american eagle and red robin,

how hard is it to pick up the phone and call someone? i mean really. i don't care if you don't want me. at least be professional and call me to tell me that. i'm sick of waiting around for you.

i just need a pillow to scream in.