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ok so if you don't care to read about my stupid complaints, go ahead and move to the next entry. i just need a place to put all my frustrations out in front of me so maybe it will make me feel better. i think the main reason why i am so stressed out and irritated is because i know i'm going to be home for summer soon and i am really anxious to get out of this dorm and come back to tacoma. or i'm just PMSing, which could very well be it. anyway, i have reached my peak with inconsiderate people. i realize i am a pushover and can't say no to anyone. for some reason, its just really hard for me to do. if someone could teach me how to stand up for myself, please, i would pay you. i'm just so sick and tired of being taken advantage of, being made fun of, being talked to like i am stupid and dealing with people with bad manners. for example, i am in college. why do people insist to still want to cheat or copy off of me because they are too lazy to pick up a damn pen and do their assignment themselves? come on people, we are on our own now. i really need to stop feeling that i need everyone in this world to like me if i give them the answers that they want to hear if that makes any sense. i made a list the other day of my true friends, sad to say its not that many, but i don't care. all i need is a handful of friends to get me through. so thanks to you guys for being them. i don't know why this week has been so hard for me. i'm so excited its friday tomorrow and i'm coming home. i really really need it. i want to laugh and smile again and just be my goofy self. i'm sick of having a frown or a fake smile when i am around people. because we all know when i don't smile i look like a bitch and its been like that this whole week. summer just sounds so relaxing right now. i told myself the other day that i was only going to write in my live journal if i had something positive to say because i hate complaining, its only an ask for attention. but i just needed to get this off my chest otherwise i was going to bust. i'm probably rambling and i'm sorry if you decided to read through all my BS. i need to think positive and be happy and just focus on the important things. i need to dominate my finals and get these last assignments in. then, i will be home, relaxing, and having fun with all you people. only a few more days, i'm looking forward to it.