May 30, 2004 17:48
i think ima very weird person and im fine with that, but ok for example, sometimes when im at work i'll just start thinking about people who have been picked on or made fun of and my heart goes out to them. a little teasing is one thing, but sometimes people just need to learn when to stop. or how people are made fun of simply by thinking outside of the box, i think thats where some of our greatest ideas can come from. anyway...maybe someday i can help right the wrongs of the afflicted! =) ok, so maybe not me, but im sure there will be a day for that.
anyway, do you ever have the feeling that you are completely oblivious to how much people dislike you and you are only starting to see in part, and after you have tried to correct whatever it was that you did wrong, there still seems to be something in the air? yeah, well, therer i am. it totally stinks too, honestly, these people arent comletely innocent beings and im sure that they have sinned before in their lifetimes, but i guess whatever...i think i've done just about all i can do. its really aznnoying when they talk to me about doing the very thing that they do to me...i have to ask...do they not see this? im sure that i have done that to other people, so i suppose this is my season of extending grace and patience to other people. =) someday this will pass, i hope, hmmmm, someday
ok, so i miss the miami chicas, cause they live soooo very far away and i havent been able to see them yet, hopefully this weekend.
when satan tempts me to despair
and tells me of the guilt within
upward i look and see Him there
who made an end of all my sin
because the sinless saviour died
my sinful soul is counted free
my life is hid with Christ on high
who looks on Him and pardons me
who looks on Him and pardons me
someday, there will be no more sadness, or tears, or pain and we will see Him as He is