Impossible to Fly...in the right direction.....
...its hard and yeah i cant handle it...yet somehow i'm stuck on it like gum.....i cant be happy...we hosted a fucking bad ass party and repeatedly i found myself crying in the dark alone although there were millions of people around....they didnt know....and the reason i started to cry was because of the song that played....our song....then i found myself in the laundry room....crying by myself ....again....i think that was the only place to be alone....without having to see everyone....and although my weekend was suppose to be awesome and i can smile ....there are somehow some people notice that i am not happy...i hate those observant people.....and its because they can see the truth....beyond the smile.....and i hurt so bad....and trying.....so hard .....and now he is the one thats doing bad.....and bad.....and bad....and bad.....it hurts so bad that i want to be happy and i want him to be happy....so why not let go?......so what are we?......why torture my heart even further....i dont want anyone but him and i cant breath alone....without him i dont have that lung compacity....and i do it to myself....you know listen to sad music and as often as i work i just cant seem to escape........US.......and he didnt even call at all last night.....i called......like a gazillion times.....and no answer......so hey GOD .....i'm tired.....of it all .......i'm tired.....please help me....make it easier......and with each day it seems like you do and somedays you make it so hard.....and other times i sing this song ......and other days i fucking love you JUNE!
and i want to scream.........COME BACK TO ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!....even if you act not like your self.....i want you back.....so try....and try and i'll try......you know your not you.....the things you do isnt you......when did you act like this......since when.....?
It's Getting Better All the Time
by Brooks & Dunn
I don't stop breathing every time the phone rings My heart don't race when someone's at my door I've almost given up thinkin' your ever gonna call I don't believe in magic anymore. I just don't lie awake at night Asking God to get you off my mind It's getting better all the time It's getting better all the time. Yeah, I got to work on time again this morning This old job is all that I got left And no one even noticed I'd been crying At least I don't have whiskey on my breath. Yeah, I think I'm gonna make it 'Cause God won't make a mountain I can't climb It's getting better all the time It's getting better all the time. God, I hope you're happy Girl, I wish you well I just might get over you You can't ever tell. I always thought that I'd do something crazy If I ever saw you out with someone else But when the moment came last night I couldn't say a word, I stood there in the dark all by myself. Yeah, I could of said a million things But all I did was keep it locked inside It's getting better all the time It's getting better all the time. It's getting better all the time...