de-chunk

[luvpumpkin]

had a massive and drastic mood swing this afternoon at work.
the trigger (or "setting event" as they say in my line of work) - my fat ass.

i completely hate hate hate the whale of a human i have become.
sure i am exaggerating but it doesn't feel like i am.... when i see pictures of myself from just one year ago, i cannot believe i am the same person. or better yet, that i am just ONE person.

sure i am being hard on myself but the fact of the matter is, i refuse to have too much of a social life outside of work and my closest and dearest friends. i must must must slim down before i let myself out of the house (or sweatshirt).

i have posted on this a few times over the past few months and it is time i did something about my body. i was never a supermodel but i was attractive enough to have a full "dance card" and consistently warm (unempty) bed.

i was going to wait til after New Years to truly start getting all bonkers about shaping up but i think it is time to de-chunk.

if for no other reason than to be healthy and mentally comfortable in my own skin.
(and maybe to get a little ass - hot naked guy, not small butt :P)!!