cycloTHYmia
Ok so here's my story of the day.... Talked w shrink. Said what ian said exactly- that going off abilify 4 one day on the heels of working 38 out of 48 hours caused hypomanic flight of ideas and paranoia which lead 2 small panic attack. When someone isn't psychotic or delusional, the paranoia turns in2 scary panic first psychological then somatic for me. Took abilify and klon when I got home. Took 45 min 2 take effect and then I passed out at peteRs. He lives in stony point ny which is close 2 my job. I got here early 2 relieve and thank the girl who worked my OT shift. Spoke w dad earlier in the panic and he said I need 2 learn 2 say no. That I need 2 learn im not the champion savior or low life of the universe and when someone needs help they rnt nec asking nor expecting me 2 give it. I feel delusions of grandeur like paranoid self preoccupation coupled w guilt and obligation. So I say yes then take on 2 much then disappoint which serves 2 only further my self dislike. My dad didn't say all of that but I got that from what he said. I need counseling on this codep delusion lack of boundary crap and called center 4 help. They should be callin me 2moro I hope.