thoughts surrounded by books
For years this bookstore wuz my haven. A place where I could both calm my mind w ideas of the saftey of the church, psych books and art... But also a place where I could feel normal in my abnormality w fantasy and new age books.
A place, this bookstore, where millions of ideas, thoughts, subjects, sounds and images coexist... Even organized in sections of shelves which 2 me said out loud - we all have a right 2 be here... We all can coexist, contradict and get along all at once.
Maps of the US, maps of italy... All dreams and places within reach... Nothing forbidden.
And here as I sit studying for my first EMT exam, I remember both the pain and joy of being in this haven... The place that both saved and enabled me and my madness.
And 2day, stable on a medication, I can still feel the good strangeness of that insane place.. The dissociative depersonalization and derealization that comforts me as it changes the ordinary making it extraordinary.
I dream often these days of love, maybe marriage and often motherhood but I'm glad I haven't 4gotten this good place of mental oddness.
Not all is insane inside me... Some of it feels like magick!
A place, this bookstore, where millions of ideas, thoughts, subjects, sounds and images coexist... Even organized in sections of shelves which 2 me said out loud - we all have a right 2 be here... We all can coexist, contradict and get along all at once.
Maps of the US, maps of italy... All dreams and places within reach... Nothing forbidden.
And here as I sit studying for my first EMT exam, I remember both the pain and joy of being in this haven... The place that both saved and enabled me and my madness.
And 2day, stable on a medication, I can still feel the good strangeness of that insane place.. The dissociative depersonalization and derealization that comforts me as it changes the ordinary making it extraordinary.
I dream often these days of love, maybe marriage and often motherhood but I'm glad I haven't 4gotten this good place of mental oddness.
Not all is insane inside me... Some of it feels like magick!