single sucks (at times - specifically NOW)
he wrote back and quite frankly, it couldn't have been any more platonic if he wrote - don't want to date you; will get around to you when i can - but if you need help with EMT stuff, let me know.
i guess it could turn into something more down the line if it supposed to - if i even want it to then. and i know being negative isn't productive but perhaps it will help me pace myself as i tend to get ahead of my feelings with neurotic hopes. hopes borne out of fear rather than true desire.
it is mother's day and i am apart from my mother.
she is in NJ and i in NY.
i miss her - i miss my family and for some reason this day is making me again wish i had one of my own.
and the platonic letters of a guy coupled with my complete lack in faith/interest in Match.com guys aren't helping me believe much in the possibility of my own family.
i will turn to God once more because without Him, i have nothing to lean on, hope for and get brave through.
2 weeks til therapy.
thank God
i guess it could turn into something more down the line if it supposed to - if i even want it to then. and i know being negative isn't productive but perhaps it will help me pace myself as i tend to get ahead of my feelings with neurotic hopes. hopes borne out of fear rather than true desire.
it is mother's day and i am apart from my mother.
she is in NJ and i in NY.
i miss her - i miss my family and for some reason this day is making me again wish i had one of my own.
and the platonic letters of a guy coupled with my complete lack in faith/interest in Match.com guys aren't helping me believe much in the possibility of my own family.
i will turn to God once more because without Him, i have nothing to lean on, hope for and get brave through.
2 weeks til therapy.
thank God