dont know where my head is at

[luvnsensations]

Ive been having a rough time the last couple of months. really rough. Things went from sorta ok to bad to worse. and some of it was way out of my control. and others were because of me. I don't really know what else to say about it. I'm not feeling well at all. and I dont want to talk about it. In fact, one of the reasons I posted in here is because it's been so long since my last post, Im pretty sure people stopped checking it.

ugh, so Im in this situation where I can't win (I plan on leaving this as generic as possible) It's totally lose-lose. If I stay in this situation, I get majorly upset and it'll never get resolved. and if I leave...I'll just be upset. and running away doesn't solve anything either. and what's worse is I feel completely powerless in this situation. The only other time Ive felt like this was with Ed. and it didn't make me happy.

I wish I were strong.