I unno nuttin
HEY!! to everyone that reads....... well i just thought i would take somee time out an write in here. I never write bc no one reads it an i feel like a loser writing in this all the time but the real reason i havent written in here is bc there is alot goin on........so with everything goin through my head bein on here is far away from my thoughts.......So anyways.......everything is ok i guess i mean my family an everything is good but shit with pierre sucks.....nothin is the same an as mad as i am at him i still wish thigs were the way they used to be with him but they prolly never will be....but i guess all we can do is hope for the best....right? i unno how he even feels anymore an i wonder what i am supposed to do........i just know we would not have been together as long as we were if there wasnt something there a reason or what not........an i really honestly even tho all the stuff that happened i wanna be with him So0o0o0o0o0o0o0o bad an like work things out but i unno what i am supposed to do..........an i know its messin with him too bc he is havin a hard time even talkin to me.......so i really dont know what to do about everything i just know i love the hell outta that boy.......id still do anything in the world for him im just tryin really hard not to let him take advantage of me or how ever you wanna look at it......i like make up reasons why i cant do things which is really sad an hard to do but i cant be the one to run to him he is gonna have to come to me.....so thats another one of them things i guess we are gonna have eto see how thinggs go i guess i really dont know....usually i know alot but right now i dont know shit..........well ok i know i love him i know he is everything too me an i know i am really upset an i also know he loves an all that other sweet n sour shit.......but i dont know what we are supposed to do about everything.......its really stressful.....part of me wonders if maybe me an him should just move away or maybe i should go alone an just try to clear my mind but thats gonna be harder then hell too..........when ur close to ppl like i am around here all this shit an things you think might work just dont bc you dont wanna leave everyone just the stuff that brings you down.....i unno tho i guess we will have to wait an see.......
love u all....ByeBYeBYE
P.s. FUCK BUSH FOR REAL