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Having a bad day. Should not be a bad day because I should be happy and excited and vibrant because I had three exams, now I'm down to two, that I had to take today and that I needed to do well on. The first one went well and now I have psyc and fluids later.
It's just been a bunch of little things that keep bringing me down. I had such a good day yesterday. and now it all kind of fell in.
last night becky came home around 10:30. I was downstairs taking my break before going to sleep and watching a tivoed americas next top model. she asked me who broke the oven and i replied that i wasnt aware the oven was broken. she proceeded to show me that the buttons for oven temp and timer on the top werent working when she pressed them, which makes sense since they have been hard to press recently. she went on to say that maybe they were broken because people were pressing them too hard. thank you becky, i was not aware that my doings alone broke the oven. not even broke, its just the top control panel that doesnt work. of course, its all missa and my fault because of course shes never home to use the oven, let alone know if the buttons were slowly dying. so she got all pissy about that and starting slamming stuff so i went upstairs. i dont even feel like im friends with becky anymore because i never see or talk to her anymore. she goes to school after i leave in the morning and she stays out all day and evening. when she comes home, its really late at night and missa and i are already asleep or doing homework/reading in our rooms. when she does come home early, she goes into her room and shuts the door and we never get to talk to her. her eating habits are really off, she eats a huge meal at around 11 every night and goes to sleep right after and i dont think she ever eats lunch, which may be why she doesnt keep up her weight. I feel like i dont know her anymore.
i just talked to missa and we were planning to let people stay at our house after progressive dinner to have some drinks and watch some movies. i guess missa woke up to a rude im this morning about how we cant just have a party at our house without telling her. we didnt think it would be a problem because we're having people over for progressive dinner earlier that evening and people who wanted to drink would just stay. its not like becky would be home anyways, or if she was she would be couped up in her room like she always is and she wouldnt even know we were here. im just really excited to be moving out. its really stressful livig with becky.
other little things happening this morning brought my mood down too although they really shouldve. i guess im just more susseptible to emotion right now with the exams and stuff ive been having lately. ill be excited when christmas break finally arrives. as for right now, i just have to push my way through and hope that it all goes well and that im sane when i come out the other end. i feel sorry for dave because all of my emotions end up showing through whatever im talking to him about because im so bad at letting them go.
well i guess all i can do now is move on. deep breath.
It's just been a bunch of little things that keep bringing me down. I had such a good day yesterday. and now it all kind of fell in.
last night becky came home around 10:30. I was downstairs taking my break before going to sleep and watching a tivoed americas next top model. she asked me who broke the oven and i replied that i wasnt aware the oven was broken. she proceeded to show me that the buttons for oven temp and timer on the top werent working when she pressed them, which makes sense since they have been hard to press recently. she went on to say that maybe they were broken because people were pressing them too hard. thank you becky, i was not aware that my doings alone broke the oven. not even broke, its just the top control panel that doesnt work. of course, its all missa and my fault because of course shes never home to use the oven, let alone know if the buttons were slowly dying. so she got all pissy about that and starting slamming stuff so i went upstairs. i dont even feel like im friends with becky anymore because i never see or talk to her anymore. she goes to school after i leave in the morning and she stays out all day and evening. when she comes home, its really late at night and missa and i are already asleep or doing homework/reading in our rooms. when she does come home early, she goes into her room and shuts the door and we never get to talk to her. her eating habits are really off, she eats a huge meal at around 11 every night and goes to sleep right after and i dont think she ever eats lunch, which may be why she doesnt keep up her weight. I feel like i dont know her anymore.
i just talked to missa and we were planning to let people stay at our house after progressive dinner to have some drinks and watch some movies. i guess missa woke up to a rude im this morning about how we cant just have a party at our house without telling her. we didnt think it would be a problem because we're having people over for progressive dinner earlier that evening and people who wanted to drink would just stay. its not like becky would be home anyways, or if she was she would be couped up in her room like she always is and she wouldnt even know we were here. im just really excited to be moving out. its really stressful livig with becky.
other little things happening this morning brought my mood down too although they really shouldve. i guess im just more susseptible to emotion right now with the exams and stuff ive been having lately. ill be excited when christmas break finally arrives. as for right now, i just have to push my way through and hope that it all goes well and that im sane when i come out the other end. i feel sorry for dave because all of my emotions end up showing through whatever im talking to him about because im so bad at letting them go.
well i guess all i can do now is move on. deep breath.