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Megan's mom e-mailed me today asking to buy my ticket off me. Megan's talked to me before about them talking about and wanting to go to a game together, as a mother/daughter thing. So I know it'd mean a lot to both of them (though, it only matters to me that it means a lot to Megan). But, you know...I've been looking forward to this for a month. But I'd feel like a dick now if I went.
And it just highlights how every time I try to do something, it just won't work out. I'll either be a dick or sit around feeling miserable because I'm not going.
I don't know what to do. Either way, I don't win.
The world hates me. What the fuck did I do to piss it off so much?
I hate my stupid fucking life. I don't know why I fucking bother. I can't win. No one gives a shit if I self sacrifice. I'm going to be alone forever because all I can be is a friend.
Fuck life.
And it just highlights how every time I try to do something, it just won't work out. I'll either be a dick or sit around feeling miserable because I'm not going.
I don't know what to do. Either way, I don't win.
The world hates me. What the fuck did I do to piss it off so much?
I hate my stupid fucking life. I don't know why I fucking bother. I can't win. No one gives a shit if I self sacrifice. I'm going to be alone forever because all I can be is a friend.
Fuck life.