banquet planning

[luvmybaby420]

yo...i just realized that the banquet is a lil way from now and this year i want it to be a lil different...every year it basically sucked for different reasons that i dont want to talk bout but this year i wanna bring a date...i want to talk to kenny bout it but im not sure...i dont think i wanna go if i dont...like....every year people have a great time....i always do to....dont get me wrong...but like...i never really belonged there....thats how i felt...like people always had a problem with me and this year is like the 1st year people actually like me 4 me...and it always sucked cause everyone always had somebody there to dance wit or sumthin....sooooo....i was gonna ask dan to go as a friend...but he would feel weird goin to a band banquet and hes goin out with kelly too so she would prob hate me even more....so not him....then kenny....but...i dont know...he doesnt even attempt to call me ne more...we still talk but not often...theres this kid justin i really like but i dont know him well enough to ask him....i saw him tonite...lol...

its like i either like guys that dont like me back cause of history or sumthin...or i cant go 4 it cause of a friend or the guys that like me are jerks....

im in a pickle