One for you dad
I was all fine and it almost was like you aren't even gone. Till tonight I went and saw Indiana Jones IV. I wasn't sure that I was even going to see it but then we had a talk awhile back about 2-3 months and you were talking about how much you couldn't wait for it to come out. So as I got to thinking as almost a way of an homage to him. It was nice to get to actually see an Indy film on the big screen. However seeing this has also brought out all the things I have really been suppressing about his passing. I mean I guess I saw this to make up for the fact that he will never get to see it. It also kinda was hard last friday I sat around the house here in my room and was kinda just passing time doing much of nothing and I picked up my phone and was getting ready to call his number just to catch up. It also kinda is hard to deal with how for so long and so many times I didn't call him just because it seemed like work and school got in the way of my life. I never really took him up on his offer of calling him anytime no matter when or what the situation called for (i.e. just to see what was new with his life and all). I just kinda got wrapped up in my life so much and at the same time I never even really took the time to just even email him ad tell him how things were going. I am still trying to plan a trip up there to Indiana to go to a Colts game just for almost old time sake cause I was planning on getting tickets for us to go see the Bears and Colts play opening day in their new stadium. I guess its all just these things kinda have been eating away at me the last few weeks. I guess I am done venting right now.