A future worth fighting for?
Ohh how life loves to throw challenges at us. I have almost this Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde thought process on the next year of my life I am trying to plan out. On one hand I am content living here in Melbourne and just trying to go to school in this area and staying closer to my friends (Ashley, Andrew and Justin)during the summer. Then on the other hand I look at it like after the summer they are gone back to their lives of school, work and such and also I am realizing that I cannot stay here forever. So on Monday of this week I went with some people I knew from middle school and some from high school to look at places to rent in Orlando more so Waterford Lakes area. We found a great place the only downside I can see from it is that the question of us all finding decent enough paying jobs so that we can actually afford to live and afford rent and such just weighs heavily on my commitment to this. I don't wont a repeat of Tampa where I am accustom to my salary and wages here but when I go out there I make less and it is hard to afford anything. Then you also throw into the mix school will also be kinda difficult if I get a Monday through Friday 9-5 job. Then to top it off I am always worried about Ashley being how she is off abroad study cheetahs and soon to be studying vultures. I am uber happy and excited for her and this opportunity but then I just get nervous at the fact that I can't talk to her everyday but she will be home sometime in Mid-June. That gives us about a month and a half to chill before she starts up classes again. I also soon have to make a decision on whether I want to go to BCC or VCC to finish up my degree and then transfer to UCF sometime next year. So it is just all these things adding up kinda freak me out since I tend to over analyze and not react so much to things. So I guess if anyone reads this I need imput to kinda help steer me in the right direction.