ummm, yea
so, yea. i went to bed last night not happy. not exactly pissed, but disappointed. im not going to explain this person should know the reason. so i had trouble getting to sleep and when i woke up, i really didnt wanna move cuz i hate tuesdays and thursdays. i have accounting at 930 then english at 1230, so i mainly read at school during my break. today though, i wanted to get away so i came home, ate chinese food leftovers, and half an hour of "shrek" cuz i had to go back. damnit! the only thing holding me up right now is that fact that tomorrow evening, ill see jamie!!!! i love my cousin, and of course she knows it, cuz i tell her that and we have esp. lol.
ya know, i came here today not knowing what the hell i was going to write, but as always the words come naturally. anyone who knows me, knows that i write different kinds of shit. i mean, its alright, but dude my stuff needs a lot of help! lol. i miss everyone...becky, james, jamie, bri, laura, mascaro, franco, sassy (no order of course).
ive been thinking that i actually miss schenectady. i know, thats really weird. but i had some really great memories there. union college is there, my friends are there, my big room is there. lol. being here is great though too. working at old navy has been awesome (not actually working, but the people i work with). if i hadnt moved and started working there, i wouldnt be friends with bri, becky, nicole, admir, and chris. the managers are pretty cool too, especially now since christine, lisa, and danielle are gone. man i hated working with christine and danielle! lisa wasnt too bad, but she got pretty annoying.
i really dont know the whole reason why i feel so damn depressed lately. maybe cuz its the end of that time of the month, i really really really miss james, and i have to get out of this house. ive been thinking of going either driving or for a walk, but i really dont know where to go. i know where i would drive, but it would kill me. its to the guy who shall remain nameless, but most people know who that is. you would think that it would be out of my system by now, but its really not and its really starting to scare me. i mean, im totally in love with james and yet i usually catch myself thinking of the other guy and its really not fair to james. i was doing really well too before that guy called me and after that, just forget about it. i know that this is my journal, but i dont really know why im saying all this. lol. im so demented right now. i need my sanity back! james come home!!
this sounds weird, but i think that if we lived MORE in the country, i would take a nice long walk. i mean, i live on a relatively busy road which connects 2 other really busy roads. i could probably walk in hidden meadow lane, but everytime that ive walked there, ive been with someone, either jamie, elise, or my family. i dont know, i might do that. i really dont think im going to go driving. but anywho i hope youre having fun reading into my mind.
(james please talk to me if you wanna talk about anything above. love you)
ya know, i came here today not knowing what the hell i was going to write, but as always the words come naturally. anyone who knows me, knows that i write different kinds of shit. i mean, its alright, but dude my stuff needs a lot of help! lol. i miss everyone...becky, james, jamie, bri, laura, mascaro, franco, sassy (no order of course).
ive been thinking that i actually miss schenectady. i know, thats really weird. but i had some really great memories there. union college is there, my friends are there, my big room is there. lol. being here is great though too. working at old navy has been awesome (not actually working, but the people i work with). if i hadnt moved and started working there, i wouldnt be friends with bri, becky, nicole, admir, and chris. the managers are pretty cool too, especially now since christine, lisa, and danielle are gone. man i hated working with christine and danielle! lisa wasnt too bad, but she got pretty annoying.
i really dont know the whole reason why i feel so damn depressed lately. maybe cuz its the end of that time of the month, i really really really miss james, and i have to get out of this house. ive been thinking of going either driving or for a walk, but i really dont know where to go. i know where i would drive, but it would kill me. its to the guy who shall remain nameless, but most people know who that is. you would think that it would be out of my system by now, but its really not and its really starting to scare me. i mean, im totally in love with james and yet i usually catch myself thinking of the other guy and its really not fair to james. i was doing really well too before that guy called me and after that, just forget about it. i know that this is my journal, but i dont really know why im saying all this. lol. im so demented right now. i need my sanity back! james come home!!
this sounds weird, but i think that if we lived MORE in the country, i would take a nice long walk. i mean, i live on a relatively busy road which connects 2 other really busy roads. i could probably walk in hidden meadow lane, but everytime that ive walked there, ive been with someone, either jamie, elise, or my family. i dont know, i might do that. i really dont think im going to go driving. but anywho i hope youre having fun reading into my mind.
(james please talk to me if you wanna talk about anything above. love you)