i leave in less than 3 days.
a 3000 mile drive to get away from it all. i'm going to miss L.A. like a bitch.
i don't know what's next. i guess i haven't really started my job search and apartment hunting in L.A. because it seems so...permanent. and final. real life hitting.
i should find out my LSAT score next week. i feel good about this one...but maybe i'm just a little too optimistic. if this one goes south too, then i don't know. i think i'll wait until after my road trip to see the score. it's better that way.
i pick up the phone and stare at it. then put it back down. should i call? should i stay strong? should i delete her number? i won't call. but from time to time, i long for closure. i'd rather us say our goodbyes officially then to leave it hanging, because neither of us wants to be the bigger person and talk about what happened. of course, i was not the one in the wrong. i know that. but i need to hear her side of it. why is it that i always attract the good-for-nothing types? or the creepy ones. or the much older ones. or a combination of all that. someday...maybe i can meet someone wonderful, who will like me just as much. do you think it could happen?
i don't know what's next. i guess i haven't really started my job search and apartment hunting in L.A. because it seems so...permanent. and final. real life hitting.
i should find out my LSAT score next week. i feel good about this one...but maybe i'm just a little too optimistic. if this one goes south too, then i don't know. i think i'll wait until after my road trip to see the score. it's better that way.
i pick up the phone and stare at it. then put it back down. should i call? should i stay strong? should i delete her number? i won't call. but from time to time, i long for closure. i'd rather us say our goodbyes officially then to leave it hanging, because neither of us wants to be the bigger person and talk about what happened. of course, i was not the one in the wrong. i know that. but i need to hear her side of it. why is it that i always attract the good-for-nothing types? or the creepy ones. or the much older ones. or a combination of all that. someday...maybe i can meet someone wonderful, who will like me just as much. do you think it could happen?