is it .. or is it not??!?
The last month has been a blur. I remember it was my birthday and now it's the end of financial year at work, i'm busy etc etc and I'm ....
Well. I feel forced to sit still and take it all in.
I may feel different but the world around me.. well it pretty much looks the same. My mum still bellows early on Saturday mornings to God knows what agenda and her 'all the lights are on in the house' radar is yet again a source of 'roll-your-eyes-she's-so-crazy" reaction between my sisters and I. Lorelie is still my robin and/or maybe she's still my batman?There is a fine line. Cindy?I beleive she's more of herself now than she's ever been. SO I don't think there's much of a change there.. she's just coming to her own and has matured into being the woman that she should be. (relief).
My large, loud and often crazy family is still large, loud and crazy. We are all still very much in love with each other and as Chris said to me the other day.. we are still our 'coping' mechanism. He said that people have different coping mechanism but his is our family. (and boy does he need coping! *sigh*). I agree though. He said it like it's always been and always will be I think. sing it with me now.. we are familyyyyyyyyyyyyy.. like a giant tree! ugh :)
Work is still work?I am good at what I do and everyone knows it. It's job satisfaction all over! But yet there's still room to move.To grow.
But things have changed in me. SOmething is in the air and I think i've captured the essence of it and I'm living in the blur.
Or maybe it's not in the air but in me and maybe just maybe i've realised that someone else has it in them too. I've just channelled in the right frequency this time?
is it love? or is it not? I could deny it. But we'll go with love. :)
**SIGH**
To celebrate that realisation.. i shall go shopping!
Well. I feel forced to sit still and take it all in.
I may feel different but the world around me.. well it pretty much looks the same. My mum still bellows early on Saturday mornings to God knows what agenda and her 'all the lights are on in the house' radar is yet again a source of 'roll-your-eyes-she's-so-crazy" reaction between my sisters and I. Lorelie is still my robin and/or maybe she's still my batman?There is a fine line. Cindy?I beleive she's more of herself now than she's ever been. SO I don't think there's much of a change there.. she's just coming to her own and has matured into being the woman that she should be. (relief).
My large, loud and often crazy family is still large, loud and crazy. We are all still very much in love with each other and as Chris said to me the other day.. we are still our 'coping' mechanism. He said that people have different coping mechanism but his is our family. (and boy does he need coping! *sigh*). I agree though. He said it like it's always been and always will be I think. sing it with me now.. we are familyyyyyyyyyyyyy.. like a giant tree! ugh :)
Work is still work?I am good at what I do and everyone knows it. It's job satisfaction all over! But yet there's still room to move.To grow.
But things have changed in me. SOmething is in the air and I think i've captured the essence of it and I'm living in the blur.
Or maybe it's not in the air but in me and maybe just maybe i've realised that someone else has it in them too. I've just channelled in the right frequency this time?
is it love? or is it not? I could deny it. But we'll go with love. :)
**SIGH**
To celebrate that realisation.. i shall go shopping!