ahh..
First time in a long while I have had time to just sit here and let time pass me by. I have been either at work or doing my business report for IIS. Business report done and submitted on Tuesday and for the first time in MONTHS, work is calm. Still a lot of shit but it's not as hectic as its been of late.
I found out something about myself this week whilst finishing my report at the last minute of course. 4am the night before it was due. I was pretty impressed that I wasn't doing it an hour before it was due. That's a first!! But soon as I finished it, i just didn't look at it anymore lest i feel awful at how crap it is!
What did i Learn?
I learn that i have this tendency of quitting when it gets so hard. I just retract to my own comfort zones and I don't push myself hard enough. By 2am i ran out of words and i started to question what the hell i'm doing this stupid report and why am i at uni? etc etc etc
I begin to doubt myself and what I'm doing and I get all frustrated and annoyed at myself for being frustrated. It's crazy.
I really can drive myself insane and I am seriuosly my worst ever critic.So much for self love... **SIGH**
So now that the report is finished and I received another rewarding success point (it's a program at work to give credit to those who are nominated because of their good work)... i'm validated. I did all this and still managed to get recognised for it.
Just holding my breath for my final results this semester.
Piece of cake! ha (that's after the fact)
So.. moral of the story.
When things get tough, get over it and get it done. Stop feeling sorry for yourself because it's worth all the sacrifice even if it means going insane with anxiety. It's not over till it's over.
yeh.
I found out something about myself this week whilst finishing my report at the last minute of course. 4am the night before it was due. I was pretty impressed that I wasn't doing it an hour before it was due. That's a first!! But soon as I finished it, i just didn't look at it anymore lest i feel awful at how crap it is!
What did i Learn?
I learn that i have this tendency of quitting when it gets so hard. I just retract to my own comfort zones and I don't push myself hard enough. By 2am i ran out of words and i started to question what the hell i'm doing this stupid report and why am i at uni? etc etc etc
I begin to doubt myself and what I'm doing and I get all frustrated and annoyed at myself for being frustrated. It's crazy.
I really can drive myself insane and I am seriuosly my worst ever critic.So much for self love... **SIGH**
So now that the report is finished and I received another rewarding success point (it's a program at work to give credit to those who are nominated because of their good work)... i'm validated. I did all this and still managed to get recognised for it.
Just holding my breath for my final results this semester.
Piece of cake! ha (that's after the fact)
So.. moral of the story.
When things get tough, get over it and get it done. Stop feeling sorry for yourself because it's worth all the sacrifice even if it means going insane with anxiety. It's not over till it's over.
yeh.