one of them days...
Ever fought the urge to just crawl into bed, wake up and then just forget what it was that made you want to crawl into bed in the first place? I'm fighting the embittered urge to do that but it would be pointless. As I know it's not as bad as it feels and that all of this would be one of those things that I've left in my ever sordid past?
I can't even describe it in words. It's like losing something that wasn't mine to begin with or was never going to be mine? If ever that feeling exist or if ever someone, somewhere, some time has experienced it? That's how it feels like.
I enjoyed his company and the feeling of being with someone.Even if some part of me feels deluded and disillusioned,some 'thing' has changed. I did not want this feeling and did not anticipate this consequential effect of the past week. i can't help but go back to a time and place before all this ever happened?
i have no words...
I can't even describe it in words. It's like losing something that wasn't mine to begin with or was never going to be mine? If ever that feeling exist or if ever someone, somewhere, some time has experienced it? That's how it feels like.
I enjoyed his company and the feeling of being with someone.Even if some part of me feels deluded and disillusioned,some 'thing' has changed. I did not want this feeling and did not anticipate this consequential effect of the past week. i can't help but go back to a time and place before all this ever happened?
i have no words...