can't get back what's already lost!
so i'm at home for my fall break, and how weird it is.
alex is out of town with his family in california for the whole break, so we've been apart for the first time in months!
mere and laney have been over and we've been hanging out, and half of me thinks it's just like old times, while the other half of me wonders why i'm even bothering, and that half of me wishes i was back at school, with the people i've spent the past year and some months with nonstop.
sure, my friends at home are my best friends still, and they were with me throughout my whole life growing up. but i somewhat feel like they've changed and i've changed and when we get back together it's still natural and yet fake. i don't know, i feel horrible for saying this but it's true. i don't know what to think, really.
alex is the only real person i have from home and school who understands EVERYTHING about me, and knows the same people that i know. i don't have doubt that if my best friends hung out with my college friends (which they will sometime next month i think), that they'll click. but still, things are SO DIFFERENT. ahhhh
alex is out of town with his family in california for the whole break, so we've been apart for the first time in months!
mere and laney have been over and we've been hanging out, and half of me thinks it's just like old times, while the other half of me wonders why i'm even bothering, and that half of me wishes i was back at school, with the people i've spent the past year and some months with nonstop.
sure, my friends at home are my best friends still, and they were with me throughout my whole life growing up. but i somewhat feel like they've changed and i've changed and when we get back together it's still natural and yet fake. i don't know, i feel horrible for saying this but it's true. i don't know what to think, really.
alex is the only real person i have from home and school who understands EVERYTHING about me, and knows the same people that i know. i don't have doubt that if my best friends hung out with my college friends (which they will sometime next month i think), that they'll click. but still, things are SO DIFFERENT. ahhhh