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w/e its christmas and me n nikki has had like our fucking worst. hopefully not the worst to come.
nway.
i aunno but this year wasn't bad. but it sure as hell wasn't fullfilling, it's more of a year or loss and gets and life experience remembering just like having a chilled back year.
But every year we already thinkit's stressfull how much stressfull or better is going to get?
I don't know, but I have an anxierty to know.
I think we're suppose to just chill like what we did for 4 months. and thats not really wahat i want to do. i miss himt o much.
that shit bothers me.
and this time is not going to be 4 months its going to be a year.
its to much time.
and it feels so bad thats its gonna b that way again cause with all the problems in da house, i cant bring another of my crazy fullishness, unless i completely stop smoking which i can do, but. damn.
Does weed really fuck people up?
nway.
i aunno but this year wasn't bad. but it sure as hell wasn't fullfilling, it's more of a year or loss and gets and life experience remembering just like having a chilled back year.
But every year we already thinkit's stressfull how much stressfull or better is going to get?
I don't know, but I have an anxierty to know.
I think we're suppose to just chill like what we did for 4 months. and thats not really wahat i want to do. i miss himt o much.
that shit bothers me.
and this time is not going to be 4 months its going to be a year.
its to much time.
and it feels so bad thats its gonna b that way again cause with all the problems in da house, i cant bring another of my crazy fullishness, unless i completely stop smoking which i can do, but. damn.
Does weed really fuck people up?