another year gone
so i am sitting here and it is almost the 29th already. another year is over and i feel like nothing has been accomplished. i always regretted not finishing school but at these moments when i feel stuck in a dead end job, the reality of the situation really hits home. of course i am stuck in a catch 22 since i need to finish school to make more money, but i need to make more money to afford school. two of my stepbrothers will be fathers within the next month. i am not even engaged so the idea of children is a long way off. i love how my stepmom always stressed how important it was to be financially stable before bringing kids into the picture, but it is perfectly fine that her son and wife who are both still in school are having a baby. i feel like the world is moving along and i am stuck in place. i want a house, not some apartment where a landlord rules my life and my finances. i am still waiting on the raise that is almost 6 months late now, but that didn't stop the rent from going up. i feel like i am not contributing as much as i should be. not that i am complaining, but it is not fair that mike can find a well paying job without a degree and i am stuck in hell.