HELP
I don't like who I have turned into. I skip out on meetings and class just cuz I don't feel like going. I spend all week sleeping and half assing studying I have forgotten what good studying is. I drink away my problems on the weekend only to become an even worse person cuz I care only about myself. I put off doing anything till the very last minute. I don't know how to appreciate anything and thus have nothing happy in my life. I have no one to turn to for support. I can't go to my mom cuz she just tells me I need to do better in school and I can't tell her I drink. Jason is way to apathetic about everything and thinks you are able to control your emotions and feelings if you want to. Sandi is never around and always with Derek and she gives me greef if I have problems with Jason. I think my friends at church will think less of me if they knew about my other lifestyle. I need someone who will take me as I am with no judgements and help me to mold myself into someone I want to be. I try praying but I feel like God has left me to fend for myself. I study the bible even more than ever and I have never felt so far away from God. I want a shoulder to lean on