How did I get here this fast?
so i finally went to bed around 4 watched t.v and everntually fell asleep.. well sort of... coughing my head off and just hoping i'll be able to go back to sleep again isn't exactly what i'd call sleep.... but then i got up this morning went to class.... played with clay... we're making a bust....i caught up pretty quick to everyone else.. considering i missed thursdays class.... i got my critique grade from my first sculpture...i got a B.. not bad for making oregomi type shit haha...so after class i came back took a shower and watched Starsky and Hutch.. i was expecting it to be funnier than it really was but whatev it kept me entertained for the most part....went to dinner at 5 and now i'm just sitting here waiting to go to work at 8.... i always wanted like one or no classes but it's actually kind of boring.. i have no idea what to do when i'm here.. i can only stare at the computer screen for so long...same goes with tv... half the time i'm not even watching it even though it looks like i am haha i'm usually spaced out thinking about shit....i do that alot....even in class....not like i have ADD or anything....just space out and think about life...the "real" world is getting closer...Renee had to remind me that we only have like 10 wks left here...i keep forgetting that i'm not going to be in college forever....Infancy class keeps reminding me about kids and the future....blah.....megs was talking about moving in together again if she's not already living with dave....ugh.. responsability sucks hahaha....i guess i'm just scared b/c i see how people are living that are out of college now or started their life right out of HS...and not everyone is happy with where they are....how things have turned out...it's scary.... i just want to be happy....I want to find the ONE for me.. get the job I want and be happy.....i've been contemplating kids even though i've been against having any....i dunno.. i guess i want to have everything planned out and perfect but the best things come when they're not expected....i was thinking yesterday in infacy about what the right age to have kids is..if i ever do find that one guy for me...then Dr.Rogoff says that having kids at like 30 is considered late....well i'm 23 now and w/o that perfect guy for me...it's not like i'm gonna just marry someone after a yr of being with them and pop out a kid or 2....i need more time...blah.....i feel like i'm never going to find that one true love...i'm going to be stuck by myself or i'll settle for something less than what i really want just because i don't want to miss out on certain things in life.....it get's depressing.....i dunno....i just wat to be happy for once.. i mean really and truly happy..... anyways enough depressing shit for one update...i'm out.. peace bitches