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hhhmmm....i havent done this in a while...
soccer conditoning starts tomorrow.im happy its like the only thing i deticate my self to. but its gonna be hard cuz im gonna have like to time to be w/ donald. and that really sucks.so im gonna try to get as much time in as i can before the real season starts.im like gonna go crazy if i cant hang out w/ him during the week plus im working again on the weekends so i dont wannna stay out late cuz i work from 8:30 in the morning till 3:00 in the afternoon.and im so tired when i get home from work i just wanna take a shower and sleep. idn im scared i dont want to lose him just cuz of fucking soccer. i dont think it would happen but u never know..... : (
im talking to nick....and hes making me cry...hes gonna be leaving for the army soon...im gonna be lost w/o him. hes my best friend and means everthing to me. hes always there when im having problems w/ guys sits there and never gets frustraded when i tell him my problems and sit there for hrs on end crying because some asswhole broke my heart. he just sits there and tell me how im such a great person an i deserve better and that its ok to cry because sometimes thats what u have to do. and later on ill be crying but it will be because i met the most wonderful person and it will be happy tears i will be crying ....i remember when i was going through all the shit w/ tim, i was so mad at my self that i still loved him and that i was so frustrated w/ everything because i couldnt get him out of my head and i still wanted to be w/ him even after everything he put me through. and nick would always tell me im not stupid for loving him. and he always finds a way to make everything ok....
i have no idea what i am gonna do w/ out you Nicholas John Kraft !